Friday, January 8, 2021
I've changed my mind about blogging weekly. My vows as a hermit are Solitude, Silence, and Simplicity. Blogging is interfering with the Silence. I spend a lot of time thinking, which is great, but spending time trying to frame my thinking in words to get it across to other people is not so great. I'm thinking my thoughts twice, instead of just moving through them and on to the next experience. I'm getting bogged down, not living in the moment, which interferes with the openness that contemplation requires. I'm always evaluating myself, not just in relation to God and our relationship, but to try to express my truth to the outside world. It just doesn't work for me, for this contemplative life.
I have always thought that introspective writing is much more useful when it is about lessons learned in the past. Experiences need to be gotten through, reflected on, and seen from the perspective of their longer-term effects. But I'm still in the first stage of the eremitic life. I'm still deep in the getting-to-know-me stage, and I don't think I have much more to say that is really fully baked and ready to publish.
Evagrius Ponticus said, "the practice of stillness is full of joy and beauty: its yoke is easy and its burden light." So I'm recommitting to stillness, silence, mindfulness, meditation, contemplation -- which is the whole point of the monastic life, isn't it?
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I wish you all choicest blessings in 2021. Peace to our polity, health to our families, and may we all grow daily to love ourselves and one another as God loves us all.